I Woke Up Like This

I've been asking myself a lot of important questions lately. One of such questions that popped up when I woke up is: Is this the life I want for myself? The answer is 'no'.

A few days after I finished serving under the National Youth Service Corps (NYSC) Scheme, I revisited my life's goals. At that time, I had just finished reading Built to Last by Jim Collins and Jerry Porras. The book advised to create Big Hairy Audacious Goals (BHAGs), which I did. Once I had the goals written down, I made a decision to pursue them with all my heart. I realized that if I was to attain all those goals in my lifetime, I would have to start working towards them early.

I knew that attaining these goals demanded a lot of sacrifice and investment in personal and people development. This means that I am going to need to spend a lot of time building up myself and as many people as possible. This would demand a lot of reading, writing, speaking and productive thinking. Looking at my life right now, these are things I haven't done a lot of in recent weeks. Currently, I am reading John Maxwell's 'Thinking for a Change'. This book has exposed my laxity and deviation from my goals.

I have been getting a lot of feedback that life will not always be as straightforward as I expect it to be. With this, I agree. But I also know that no matter how much life throws curveballs at me, my goals are supposed to be the lighthouse that will help me through the sea storm. If I cannot use my goals as a guiding light then there was no reason I should have written them in the first place.

The good thing, however, is that my recent disappointments have brought huge, important lessons with them. I have learned the limits of my current skills and abilities. I have learned more about my level of Emotional Intelligence and my true personality.

I am determined, more than ever, to fulfill God's plan for my life. I am determined to be happy and satisfied with my life, and right now, I'm not just in that zone. But things will change. Over the next few days I will make important decisions and get back on track. Part of such decisions will be more dedication to studying and writing. I also intend to create an inner circle of great thinkers. If not that, then I must at least belong to one soon.