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A few days ago, during an inter-city journey, I was thinking about a lot of things and this question popped up in my mind. 'What if God really doesn't exist?' To be honest, it's not the first time that question has come to my mind. However, the other times, I'd just ignore it. I never tried to answer it because I didn't think I had a good enough answer for it.
That day, though the question hit me unexpectedly, I had a ready answer for it even though the answer wasn't consciously prepared. This was impressive to me. Impressive, not in a conceited way; but in a way that showed me how far I had come in my relationship with God (not that I've go so far, I haven't). The answer impressed me because it helped me realize how much deeper my trust in God is now compared to few months ago.
In case you missed it, check out this post to better understand how June 2015 was like for me. It was at the beginning of June that I went from having diverse sources of income to having none. From that time till now, God has been taking me though a tough process of growth. I've basically been going through the Refiner's fire. It's not over yet, but I'm all the better for it.
My answer to the question 'What If God Really Doesn't Exist?' was: "I would simply kill myself if I found out. I mean, what else is there to live for?" As surprised as I was by my own answer, I felt more peace within me. The answer may not be very logical to you, but it was enough for me. Because now, I know that I trust God more than ever and that trust in Him will only grow as this process of purification continues. It might have stalled in recent weeks but I know there's an end to what I'm going through, and it will be for the glorification of God and the submission of my flesh.
Wow, for me, It's farther than just religion, God is greater than religion. Whenever people ask me "why do you believe so much in something you can't see?". I reply by telling them of when I was a child,I read a lot of fiction ,a world where fairies, pixies, gnomes existed. I liked it. And even though they didn't really exist, I created a world where they were alive. Why? Cause it made life more exciting for me. I liked it there.
ReplyDeleteSo even if "papa" mentions it tomorrow that God doesn't exist, I'll create a world where he does. Because my life is so much better with "God" and everything that he is.